We, people, tend to take things for granted until it’s not there anymore. You know, I’ve been blogging since I was 12-years-old and even to my surprise, I’m still here doing it. It started out as an outlet and a hobby. I was this kid, barely a teenager, exploring and needed a way to express herself. In blogging I found peace. It gave me the opportunity to let it out, to cope, to unleash my so called creativity and to just document my life in general. I love it, you know? People might think that this ‘thing’ might be dying but blogging is a way to express and not just some trend. This hobby turned into passion. Throughout the years, I’ve been juggling with anxiety and I was terrified of other people’s opinion about me but hey I’m still here right? That’s the proof that I got through it.
So I never stopped. I aged, grew up, learned new things and so many character developments happened to me but I didn’t stop. There are a lot of times where I thought, why should I? Nobody cares about me. Nobody cares about what I write and put out there. No one was ever really supportive of my passion and it ate me. I let it.
From being a teenager who spent majority of her time on social media, putting herself out there, updating every minute to the girl I am today who lost her drive to blog and to let her life revolve around social media.
I never thought I would come to this point because I was so into social media. I guess we never really know how much circumstances can change us. It was for the better.
A few months back, something happened to my host and my domain (www.claudineann.com) was about to expire. I honestly didn’t care anymore. I said, why should I care? I wasn’t even putting out content for months anymore. It felt like work. I wasn’t enjoying it anymore. And then I lost it. Funny, that’s when I realized how much I miss it and how much I love it.
I decided to keep going that’s why I’m here. I don’t care if I get recognized or not. I don’t care if people likes what I do or not. I don’t care if people don’t support me. I love what I’m doing and I won’t ever let my anxiety stop me from doing it.
And so I just want to say to whoever is reading this entry… If you’ve been a reader, I want to sincerely thank you for sparing me a bit of your time. If you’re a fellow blogger or if we follow each other on social medias, I may not know what to say sometimes that’s why I don’t comment or message on your posts but I see it and I read it. Thank you for supporting me in little ways and those little ways? They mean the world to me. Thank you.
I promised myself that I won’t give up this time. I’ll keep going.
Have courage to fight your demons and the determination to keep going.