It’s been awhile, has it? I know I said I’ll make more content but lately, life has been getting in the way. I’m still trying to figure out if it’s a good thing or a bad thing because it’s great that I’ve been preoccupied but I also feel like I haven’t v/blogged in forever. Honestly, I’m still lost about what content I should put out because writing reviews feel like work to me and writing about personal stuff seems boring to me.
So what’s up with me? I turned 22 last month and I still don’t know what to feel about it. It’s kind of depressing how I’m 22 and I’m still at school, but I learned to just accept my past mistakes, learn from it, and do better. I legit went through days feeling like shit that all of my batch mates from my past college and even high school batch mates are already working and here I am, still a struggling college student. Eventually (like a few days later), I realized that I should not feel pressured by other people’s progress, and that I should be grateful that I’m still studying. So yeah.
The semester started last month and my free days are spent either by being with my people or just sleeping. My schedule this semester is pretty nice. I only have 4 days of classes but somehow, I still find it exhausting. Well, I mean, when will it never be exhausting? This semester, I became the head of graphic design team of my org, which I still find ridiculous but it’s comforting that some people believes in me. It’s still weird though. I guess I really need to work on my self-confidence. Hmm, my job is basically to make pubmats (posters) for the org whenever there’s events, activities and such. Thanks to my production course last year, I discovered (and other people too) that I can actually create a decent pubmat, decent enough to join an org. *giggles* But to be quite honest, I’m enjoying it. I’m meeting people (which never happens because I’m an introvert and I have a poker face) and actually talk to them. I’m even making content (?) for the org which I believe will benefit me in the future in the workplace. I don’t know, I just enjoy it despite that it requires A LOT of time, patience and ideas. So far, so good.
If you’re gonna ask me how I really am, I’d say that I’m okay. I really am. This year has been a hell of a year but I can say that I’ve grown so much. I learned so many things about people, life and myself. Slow progress IS STILL progress, am I right?! The first half of August was a little bit bad for me, I was going through a lot, feeling like shit, dealing with anxiety every freaking day, but I’m glad I’m over it. I still have my days but… I’m okay.
Hmm, what else? Oh yeah, it’s good to finally be open and I don’t know how to explain it, maybe… know where we really stand in each other’s life? I’m talking about my bff, lol. We didn’t talk for months and that’s the worst fight we ever had! But we’re okay now and I think our relationship is better than ever. I’m happy that we’re more mature now. She still annoy the heck out of me sometimes, but oh well.
Also, I haven’t been writing reviews and stuff on my blog because I feel super pressured to come up with LOOOONG ass content and I just don’t have the time and right mind for it. I just realized now that why opt for LOOOONG content when I can just go straight to the point? Do you get me? Ugh!
Mikwel and I are great. He’s the only thing that keeping me sane in the midst of chaos. There’s not much to say because I really like keeping our relationship private. I’m just really happy that he’s in my life. He’s my constant.
Things happened that I’m just so lazy to elaborate so I’ll just go straight to the point!
- I got the shoes that I’ve been eyeing! The Fila Disruptor II! I SOOO freaking love the fact that it adds an inch! I feel super tall whenever I wear it! 😛
- I have a 9AM class. Years ago if someone told me I would actually wake up at 5AM and leave home at 6AM to attend a 9AM class, I would flip a finger and say NEVER but here I am.
- Damn, To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before movie IS SO GOOD! I’ve watched it like 10x already!
- I’ve been rewatching Grey’s Anatomy but I hate the fact that Netflix PH only have Season 1, 2 and then the latest one. I got lazy to watch it. Meh.
- I’ve been buying eyeshadow palettes!
- I won a Bad Habit Beauty palette from a giveway. I CAN’T EVEN BELIEVE IT MYSELF???!!!
- I watched the Irreplaceable You movie and I loved it. It reminded me of TFIOS.
- So much Youtube drama, I cannot!!!!
I guess that’s pretty much it. It’s not much but hey, life’s been okay. I don’t wanna jinx it but yeah.